I really need to start blogging on here again. 

But so have you.

The beauty surrounding me is blurring.

The fascination for the simple things has faded.

Is it me who has changed or is it the world?

Did I melt slowly into this abyss of this mundane life?

Or was it something else?

I want to be awed again by the small, insignificant things.

I want to be amazed by what I’m surrounded by.

I want to see the sun in my eyes and feel the wind in my hair.

I want to breath the fresh air into my lungs.

I want to feel alive and free.

It’s the Fierce scent, to be exact.

That’s what happens when you’re folding clothes in their store for 5 hours.

365 days.  Wow.  It’s hard to imaging a new year is already upon us.  Here I sit on my bed pondering the year of 2011.  A lot has happened.  A lot of good and a lot of bad as well.  I’ve been happy, sad, angry, frustrated, ecstatic, and filled with joy. 

There were times during the year when I simply didn’t know what was next.  I wanted to fast forward, pause and rewind.  There were other days when life was just a mundane cycle.  It seemed everyday was the same.  But through it all, I survived. 

2011 gave me a chance to grow in more than one way.  I grew emotionally.  I developed a greater since of confidence.  I dreamed bigger dreams.  I set goals.

I also grew in knowledge.  College offered me the change to meet others and think critically.

I also grew in my walk with God.  I found myself talking with him more than ever.  I sense that I trust him more than ever.  He’s given a peace that I simply can not describe.

To be honest, my favorite part of the New Year is reflecting on the past year and just being blown away by all that has happened.  All that me, my friends, my family, the citizens of this earth went through and somehow survived.  I review and see my failures and successes and see how I can apply them to the coming year.  Every year I want to improve. 

I’ve learned a lot in 2011.  I look forward to using what I’ve learned for 2012, because 2012 might just be the most challenging year to date.

But as stressful and crazy as things might get, I feel a calmness in my soul.

Before I close, I wanted to thank everyone who has prayed, offered encouraging words, and/or been there for me.  You guys helped this year be one of the best.  Without you, life wouldn’t have been nearly as awesome, so thank you. 

2012 is going to rock, my friends.

Last year was great, but I can’t wait for this year to start.